|Tuesday, March 21st, 2006|
hmmm i am updating... so I have a bf and bronchitis and..., uhm something else that is also uncomfy but it'll all go away in like a week or so... hopefully... this bronchitis business=no fun... I love my bf con todo de mi corazon y el es THE BEST... EVER... lol... my first period teacher can be awful mean because uhm... she was like talking bad about me when i missed school the other day and now i'm gonna have to miss school a couple more days til i get better... tear... i won't see my bf for a while either... makes me sad fo real... i hope that one day... i'll have such an awesome immune system that i'll never be sicky again... other than that... i have a weird sense of complacency about me... all the time. I am so content with life and everything is so awesome and good and chill... why would i ever want anything to change from the way my life is right now? it's crazy... i guess that's how my life is -one state of complacency to the next until something comes up and i have to get over it... and then on to another state of complacency... idk if its complacency its happier than complacency... i'm damned happy... aside from this bronchitis... i think no one should touch my book, backpack, computer, or anything else for a very long time or else.... they'll get bronchitis...
|Thursday, February 16th, 2006|
i have a bf... uhm idk if he reads this website junk that i post... lets hope not... i loves him... but i think something is missing... i mean i got out of a relationship recently and well it ended badly but we were so used to each other like i had "become accustomed to his face" and voice and EVERYTHING else... so Idk what to do with myself missing things when i don't miss his personality... that's a lie but w/e I can't avoid it it is my destiny to ALWAYS be hung up over someone else I guess I will just stick it out until I become accustomed to this guy's face... he is really cute tho and awesome... I also have another crush but that's just me... I wish God would give me all cupid's arrows... so I could stick myself a couple times... for all I know I would prolly just keep making it (ON ACCIDENT) so that the first person i see is my ex... I wish I neverfelt love or felt my -ex at all so I wouldn't think that I was missing anything... YAWN... sleep is good I can't wait til net year... actually holy shit i am turning 16 soon... I'm so SO SO syced... I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself... a party? yeah... prolly... and what else... smile prolly...yeah prolly.. and yeah I am in the mood to type cuz I am in web development class and Im iz bored... so yeah how about them redskins... i am gonna go on sparknotes now... and read the rest of freddy douggy's narrative... i hope my bf buys me lunch 2day i am broke phi broke(i aint got it)
|Tuesday, February 7th, 2006|
|Wednesday, January 11th, 2006|
LOL... I thott that this on guy liked me... but he doesn't? and that is GREAT, because now I got a better guy--I don't last long with crushes that I am not secure with... i.e. wasn't sure if he liked me... so I did the secure chic thing anD MOVED ON... to this dude...... who is relly awesome... n cute 2... that is always a nice bonus... and awesome... and i Love hiM...
|Saturday, January 7th, 2006|
I am so punk todat... i want to take pictures... when i get home, I am just gonna stare at myself in the mirror and take pix... i haven't had a good tongue kiss... in a minute... I want to go see hostel... but I don't have a particular someone's number to tell him/her anything at all...
|Friday, January 6th, 2006|
you know what is lovely? I can breathe... but i got a headache tho... n i kno it is only cuz it is four something am... peace internet world... sleep tight... i got a new crush... all too soon... wasn't talking to the old crush enough... so it faded... onto the new... he is sexii... 4 serious...
|Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006|
|lla la la la life
i guess you say what can make me love paige so? her lips, her face, her hair, talking Bout Paigely... OOooOoOooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooo... I am bored... my -exexexexex wants to get baq with me and I was all like... nerp... sad riiii? yuh i kno... well I miss my -ex like crakk but I would never go baq with him... I think... I need Love loOoOVE tO lIFT mE up...... sERIoUsLy... LA LA lA la La... Current Mood: w/e
|new fav song
i love this song... ui have GOT to hear it... as long as you can hear... you should hear this song... no, sirrusslii... it is called satellite-dave matthews band... get it hear it love it... keep it
I am ALWAYS online... this is getting to b a bit much it is like... damn it is three something and i am still signed onto YIM, AIM, MSN IM, and why WHY WHY? I am going to bed goodnight world... just downloaded some new "anti conformist conforming" music I downloaded the whisper song wait til u see my bleep... and the whistle song... whistle song is not cool tho cuz I cannot even whistle...
|Sunday, January 1st, 2006|
|when in a state of terminal boredness... take a quiz!!! and another and another and another
|You Are 22 Years Old|
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
|Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover|
You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.
|Your Mood Ring is Dark Red|
|The Keys to Your Heart|
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
|Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating|
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.
boring... how can i be the goddess of death? wtf...
i am throwing a eat the food ppl didn't eat on new year's party... seriously, we have WAY too much food left over...
|Saturday, December 31st, 2005|
it is late, and i dont know where my mother is
|Friday, December 30th, 2005|
|nice girls finish last
To every girl that dresses cute not skanky
To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.
To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect birthday present for you.
To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose the whore instead.
To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
To every girl that wont settle for the jerk.
To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.
To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.
To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.
To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
To every girl who just wishes he cared.
To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.
To every girl who just wants him to call
To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
To every girl that just wants to sleep with him, without having sex.
To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt so many times or so badly.
To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.
To every girl that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every girl that believes in her dreams.
To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve those dreams.
To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesnt think it is funny.
To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.
To every girl that has been cheated on cuz shes not a whore who gives it up to any guy.
To every girl that doesnt want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
To every girl who wants words backed up with actions.
To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find themselves alone in the end.
To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.
THIS ONE IS FOR YOU.
|Thursday, December 29th, 2005|
we miss it
though we avoid it
outside, on the street
avoid touching shoulders
making eye contact
i need it
when we walk in circles to avoid
We stop walking
which way do I walk?
he walks that way I go the other
stop walking, I will walk past you and we will be ok
when we want it so much?
what fun is it being one,
unless we were originally two?
my hands on you
every part of me,
part of you
something I have long'd to do
and everywhere else
was I scared?
only to possibly be
without that someone
to be there
in his arms
wrapped in our arms
holding his hair
kissing his lips
surrounded by our hair
to go further
dammit... I feel too much... Current Mood: deep/poetic/sexii/emo... alot
|Wednesday, December 28th, 2005|
|you feel me?
never really gave much background... didn't relly think it was necessary unless u wantd to steal my identity.. btw go ahead if you want to... anyway, I am mixed... half jamaican half white... never met my daddy... all i know is his name... and how to spell it... i was born in... Yokota air force base located in tokyo japan... awesome right? i know... i have one bro who is 21... six yrs older than me... and awesome... i love him with every fiber of my being... except those... yeah u know what i am talking about... uhm... I... er... i don't know what else to say... i write... alot... short stories and poems... sometimes songs... i am very emotional... and live to love... when i am not in love i just wander about... wondering what point there is to life and being alive... i love people... my best friend is... ever changing i think it is tenesa... God I love that girl... i wish she wasn't so on crack tho... she was in a relationship with a 38 yr old man... i wanted to cry seriously... i was so afraid for her she didnt even know him... gosh... but w/e I am not against older guys or anything, it ain't nothing but a nuhuhuhuhmber BUT you gotta get to know a person and 38 is a big fukken number... I erm... have an inferiority-you-dont-really-love-me-comp
lex... due to my family... it is crazii... but I love them and they love me... it is hard to explain, it is practically all the women in the family... I need to be in a relationship right now... someone needs to find a way to tie me down... seriously lol literally...... uh... I dont really know what to say... or type... i have led a very interesting life but it is easier to talk about... when i am actually talking to someone... you feel me? lol... my favorite words are sexy, meow, apples, roar, and grr... i love tigger... I LOVE TIGGER... and hobbes too... and huwey from boondocks... lol... he kills me... ask Qs I love Qs Current Mood: sexy
i bought some fuck me harder boots... my life is now... officially... complete... and i also need a really short skirt so i can relly look like Mimi... I missed an outing today... and it made me sad... my grans wanted me to go with her to the airport... BWI... my family doesn't like ot let me have my way and they also dont like to let me have my cell phone... dammit... I relly wanted to spend time with a certain someone... it would've been fucken awesome... even without the fukken... but I jus hope there will b another opportunity... before break is over... I love shopping... sometimes... lol... I am so crazii... one minute i love it... the next minute it depresses me.. it is annoying the way that EVERYTHING reminds me of my ex and his new girl... but today instead, I was thinking... of a different someone... with dreads... wink wink...